my daily reflections…

to become willin to make the list of ALL persons i had harmed i needed to go back to the earlier steps and focus on those principles. with the help from my sponsor i looked at the honesty, hope, faith, courage, integrity, and humility, i had worked at practicin. pullin from each of these and wantin to apply love to this list meant i had to be certain to place myself on this list. and to say it was an easy addition was tough. i had become familiar with honesty, hope, and faith, but lookin at possibly forgivin myself required the courage and integrity of willingness and humility. i had to take me out of it. i could not let pride or ego try to allow me to story tell myself into over lookin the hate and disdain i had felt for me. i learned if i could be unconditionally forgiven and loved by my HP, i could use that strength and exoneration to forgive and start lovin myself, surrenderin and acceptin the mistakes i had made. it took time, but my name made that list. 1 day @ a time...