my daily reflections…

this step in many ways is a 2nd honest attempt at a personal moral inventory. surely the 4th step moral inventory did me well. i was able to learn the exact natures of character defect and shortcomins i had. but here with this redoubled effort i get to put into practice how to not make the same mistakes goin forward in my recovery. how many people were affected by the poor management of selfishness and self-absorbed will. how did the rationalization and justification give me the right to put so many, anybody, in a rearview mirror behind my self-righteousness and self-delusion. lookin at these harms, surrenderin to realities that i did these things, acceptin i was the one who did what i did, or said what i said, was a practice in usin what i had learned through the prior steps to fend off any self-pity this inventory may have incited. takin my HP with me and much parley with my sponsor were fundamental in this dependent weighty descent into self. emotional health was what i experienced from this. with it i was able to grow mental well-bein and spiritual experience with a psychological transformation in cognitive ability. 1 day @ a time...