my daily reflections…

i cannot think today, no better way to develop the best possible relationship with every human bein i know other than to do exactly what i always thought i was doin in the days of doin my dirt. did i think i was honest, brought hope, lived with integrity, lived in humble action or words, and freely gave the gift of brotherly love? of course! i thought all these things were actions and behaviors i always did. recovery showed me, then taught me, just how my alcoholism had skewed the truth of the reality i was livin. recovery allowed me to open my mind and actually see through inventory how i acted and behaved with natural human emotion, resentment, jealousy, envy, frustration, and fear. these character defects were enacted toward others with selfishness, dishonesty, self-seekin motives, self-pity, and fear itself. whether i was demandin or gracious, i used these negative characters to be mean, egotistical, and self-centered. this step and the one that follows, with the newfound knowledge of self, helps me begin to heal jealousy, suspicion, and bitterness. not only for myself, but, hopefully, for others as well. 1 day @ a time...