my daily reflections…

i had been taught how to live lifes journey in my youth. i had been taught by my ma, the rights, and wrongs of a clean life. i had learned through church how to live a righteous lifestyle, and social norms taught through schoolin, but none of those teachins were what i wanted growin up. i wanted to experience life the way i wanted to live it. i remember walkin the streets of my small southwest michigan town just waitin for the opportunity to have shit happen like i had seen in the movies. and i even tried to make it happen. it led me straight to the alcoholism ive spent the last 19½ years recoverin from. today i understand what to do to stay sober, the question is, do i want to do it? today i am able to live with emotional balance, do i want to live in it? am i able to manage situations and live to good purpose under any condition? recovery has become a practice of adventure ive learned through trial and error how to live. ive learned how my self-will was always the cause of the troubles i faced. like i said i lived life like i wanted so i could experience it the way i wanted. recovery has taught me to have a yielded will. this thing we do has shown me how to attune my will to the will of my HP. today i want different shit than i did in my youth, ive suffered enough from my self-will. i wanna stay sober, i wanna live with emotional balance, and i wanna be able to manage situations which used to baffle me. today, i choose to put into practical use the spiritual principles of recovery. the acid test may not always turn out the way i want it to, but the adventure of a new life today is my new reality. the promises keep comin true contingent on the daily maintenance of my spiritual condition. 1 day @ a time...