My body is ravaged
My soul is torn
I have smothered my spirit
My mind is clouded
My heart full of shame
And I shake with fear
Can I keep trying to start over
& begin again & again
What must it take for me to get off this ride
Will I even be able to survive
My foundation has crumbled I cannot lie
My prospects seem unreachable
Is this how I will die
My tears seem never to dry
I cry out for forgiveness
It’s me who turns away
I have no one & nothing but my ability to pray
Is it worse to feel nothing
Or far too much
I long for serenity for longer than a day
Have I passed the point too far
Or am I just in time
I don’t know if this choice is just mine
I ask for Angels to surround me but I know they never left
It was me, always me that abandoned myself
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DANG! That was awesome! I didn’t want it to end!
How true is it that we can so easily give up on ourselves, the one we should fight hardest for!
Thank you for sharing that! I am a HUGH angel person, so I envisioned that part of it!
Thank you! It was so personal and written from the heart during a particularly low moment. I’m so glad it resonated with you. Being stuck in the “frequency of addiction” (Tommy Rosen, Recovery 2.0) is so painful, vicious and truly insane!
It wasn’t an easy decision to share but I know that’s how we help one another & never give up….
I’m so blessed to know that it can and does get better if we work for it! One day at a time.
Love & Light,
TL