my daily reflections…

perseverance is an action, behavior, and thinkin process for me. it means that i take everythin i have learned about myself throughout the prior 9 steps and put it all into practical daily livin. when i first came to step 10, perseverance seemed like a dauntin task. how could i use all the stuff i had found out and put it to use in my life just for 1 day? as ive grown within and my recovery has evolved, today it is not so fearful if i think of all the information my experience has provided and use it as wisdom instead of a dauntin task. perseverance is a simple thing to do, it just means that i use what ive learned through recovery in such a manner that i do not continue to act, behave, or think, as i once have. if and when i use it as simply as it is, i get to stay sober, keep emotional and spiritual balance, and live with effective purpose under all conditions. perseverance is somethin that helps me to continue to be honest so i may see the unmanageability in my life when i take control. it helps me to continue to seek the good life and perceive the events around me as conditions for what God intends. in quiet times alone with my HP, i get to reflect on how ive used the process of recovery to better my life. i get to pick through all the shit and find the character that has helped me throughout my recovery so that i may use it again to continue to grow positively. i get to discover that my HP is both architect and interior designer of my life helpin me to commit actions that turn into behavior, that change my thinkin, makin me who i am today. this provides me hope and gives me enormous potential in establishin perseverance, inside and outside, of me. perseverance and reflection help me understand that all of recoverys suggestions are free and the ones i dont take are the ones i end up payin for. this mornins readin is a perfect definition of what perseverance is in my recovery. with hope, open-mindedness, and willingness, i get to live it as best as i can, not committin the reprehensible shit of the time before my recovery began. 1 day @ a time...