my daily reflections…

i would not be where i am today without the painstakin work of personal inventory. how could i fix me if i didnt know what was wrong with me. the deep digs into character allowed me to see my defects and shortcomins, as well as my assets. becomin aware of who and what had become allows me today to use the wisdom of experience to watch out for the shit that crops up unexpectedly. prayer allowed me, in my early days of recovery, and still allow me today, to ask my HP for guidance as to how i may live my day and guide me when those characters crop up out of nowhere. when i listen quietly in meditation, i get to hear and feel His intuitive bodin within give me direction as to how i may move forward. when i am understandin of what the problem is, i can focus on what the solutions are; i get the opportunity to listen so i may change me, makin myself better. i get to learn how to forgive myself so i can learn to love myself. i can then pass that forgiveness, hope, and love onto others. when i put God first, recovery second, service toward others third, and myself last, all the other shit falls into place accordingly in between as needed. there is no limit to what His power can do in my life, but i must work to have Gods power, and i must ask Him for it. my HPs power is blocked from me by my indifference to it and reliance upon self-will or material items. when i confuse ambition with arrogance, i dont get to climb the ladder of spiritual awareness. however, when my understandin of personal ambition is placed in accordance with its right priority, it is a powerful spiritual attribute that enables spiritual awareness and achievement. lettin go of self may be difficult to do when confusion comes and distorts my reality creatin the illusion of delusion, but if i keep right minded, i neednt worry of blockin the flow of my HPs direction for me. keepin shit simple, keepin me out of the way, i get to continue to walk a spiritual path that teaches me to do first things first each day and not fret about the outcome. just as faith without works is dead, recovery without action is fantasy. focusin and listenin allows me to stay on the path my HP has for me keepin me spiritually aware of the world around me. 1 day @ a time...