my daily reflections…

with a new state of consciousness and havin had a spiritual awakenin as the result of the 12 steps, i get to try to carry the message to alcoholics and practice these principles in all my affairs. i could never have told ya’ll when i first came into the rooms how 15 ½ years later i would have such a different view of life. to me, back then, it seemed a fairytale, this idea of honesty, hope, faith, courage, integrity, willingness, humility, love, justice, perseverance, spiritual awareness, and service toward others. they said, do these things joel, and before ya know it, ya will begin to heal from the things within that have hurt ya all of your life. ya will find solutions to lifes questions that used to baffle ya. ya will feel freedom from terror, bewilderment, frustration, and despair. ya will experience all the promises found throughout the big book that give ya a good life. ya will want to give forgiveness, hope, and love instead of tryin to steal it away from others. today, i can say, what they said back then, even as i found it hard to believe, is truth. they said, i would experience lifes ups and downs, lifes rollercoaster wouldnt stop, but i would know what to do when life rode the rails. and if i didnt know, that there would be people around me that would help me find the right answers, whether i liked the answers or not, i would be able to move forward without a drink. as i sat there confused and full of my spiritual malady, they gave me their confidence, lovin sympathy, best advice, they gave me themselves, as others had done for them when they came into the rooms. today, its my turn to give what i have learned. lettin loose of my antediluvian way of thinkin, with a focus of clarity, a new state of consciousness, spiritual awareness, and passion, i get to practice the principles by givin of myself freely to those who come into the rooms today just as tore up as i was when i came in. allowin myself to respect the intuition that my HP gives me, i get to share my inner feelins, my wisdom, the foundation of my honesty, how i live in quiet moments, how i am able to perceive what i know in my heart, and how ive grown to respect and trust. and the best, yes, the best, how i get to face fear with faith and erase it from my consciousness with the spiritual principle of this thing we do by givin freely and unconditionally, forgiveness, hope, and love. 1 day @ a time...