my daily reflections…

recovery, because of sobriety, then sobriety because of recovery, has been my experience. havin lived and practiced the 12 steps over the years, goin through the steps many times since, i have been gifted to experience the spiritual awakenin the 12 steps profess. and it is truth that i could never had experienced the spiritual awakenins i continue to get to if i had stopped livin recovery after goin through the steps the first time. sobriety is the foundation that helped me to continue forward so i could get the recovery i needed then and continue to need today. as ive sat in the rooms and watched and listened to others experience, and can even think back on my own, just merely quitin drinkin would not have been enough for me, as i have learned i suffer from the disease of alcoholism. have ya ever been around another self-professed alcoholic that hasnt taken the time to live or continue to practice the steps? still wrapped up in their shit, still tryina beat the game, still failin miserably at each turn, still blamin others, still angry, and still behavin like a 4-year-old spoiled rotten child? weighed down with the years behind and the days ahead, backs broken, burdened by every moment of the day? its a life i dont want to or have to live anymore. GAWD, how i remember how that shit hurt. today im ever grateful for the final act of desperate self-honesty that helped me understand just how helpless and hopeless i was, and the gift of recovery others who came into the rooms before me, showed me. today, i aint gotta live with that misery and self-torture, i have a way out that provides peace of mind and inner happiness that flows outward from within. i get to face that which lies behind me and breathe in the blessin of each new day, with my HPs and recoveries help. i get to use the foundation of sobriety to repair the wreckage of the past and build a better future, just by livin this moment, this day, as best as i perceive my HP would have me. each day in recovery is another milestone the gift of sobriety and recovery offer me. within this wonderful new world, i have found freedom from the fatal obsession of self. 1 day @ a time...