my daily reflections…

humility tells me that i am no better than another alcoholic. humility reminds me that when it comes to my alcoholism i am no stronger than any other. when i feel as if i am the better person i an committin the act of apostasy, makin myself better than my HP and those around me. when my spiritual malady is runnin the show i cannot be effective nor useful in expressin my story. i must remember that i am equal to another, just as weak as they, when it comes to alcohol and my alcoholism. i cant serve my fellows when im showin my ass. the only thing i am servin, is self. i have learned through this recovery program much about my character flaws and shortcomins through lookin into my resentments and how i nurtured them. when i speak with another about my alcoholism, what it was like, what happened, and what it is like today, i dont need to try to embellish anythin nor do i not tell of me, or my emotions. what good does it do me to tell another some sad sack, tear jerkin story or some adventurous journey that is full of thrills and action? i have learned that layin my story out straight, honestly, and humbly, is how i can be useful and effective. i share how my final days while out doin my dirt affected others and myself. i share the determination i made that brought me into the rooms. then i share how i have used what recovery has taught me about myself so i could overcome myself. its what others did for me, its what my sponsor did for me, so it stands to reason its what i should do for another when they come into the rooms seekin recovery. i share how i have built a relationship with my HP. i share how livin a spiritual lifestyle keeps me away from powerlessness and unmanageability. i share how honesty, hope, and faith have given me courage, integrity, humility, brotherly love, and justice. i share how willingness has given me the strength to persevere and gain spiritual awareness. this is how i serve my fellows. when i look for my own reflection in those i meet i get to see a reflection of all humanity. i have recovered and have been given the power to help others. i get to have the courage to be content with the imperfection of my story. 1 day @ a time...