my daily reflections…

i can tell ya’ll with certainty, with complete honesty and candor, that i do still suffer from times of misery and self-induced trouble. the difference from now, and from the days before my recovery began, is that i have a different set of means to deal with it all. im human, and for me to try to deny myself of feelin the emotions that God has given me is to fall back into the devices before my recovery began. when i feel these basic human emotions befall upon me i must use what recovery has taught me. i must pray and meditate, do the personal inventory needed, speak to another about them, and then move forward as my HP would have me. surely this doesnt mean i stay stuck in yesterday, or fear tomorrow, but rather live the moment through so as to continue to build the character assets ive been workin toward. what usually happens, i learn. i learn the how and why of recovery, of myself. i learn that happiness, joy, and freedom are within my power today as opposed to the days of doin my dirt. what better way to live the proof of my HPs omnipotence than to ask for help, squarely look at the difficulties i face, see my part in them, confess it all with another, then live out the solution. isnt this what recovery has taught me to do to not only overcome joel, but live, givin service to others by the show of the power of the recovery i get to live today. livin as spiritual a life as i can, i aint gotta be rigid, judgmental, and arrogant. i can instead dance with my HP in da sunlight of His spirit with flexibility, open-mindedness, humility, and confidence. it is then i turn in direction to be helpful while not takin on an unbalanced, and unhealthy, co-dependent, caretakin role. it has been my experience that when i use generosity of spirit in all my dealins with self and others, without lookin for anything in return, i get to create a feelin of connection with others, my HP, and self. it is sobriety and recovery with action, not maligned fantasy. it is happy, joyous, and free. positive, healthy action changes me behaviorally, psychologically, behaviorally, and spiritually. 1 day @ a time...