my daily reflections…

i dont think i thought i would be were im at today when i first came into the rooms. honestly, i didnt know if recovery would work for me or not. ive been able to learn so much about myself since i started this journey. i probably dont do it as right as the next guy, or the other person, but i do it. like this mornins readin says “we try to move a lil toward Gods perfection”. its what i have done since i started, and im prob gonna try to do it again today. gettin wrapped in all the shit i cant do only takes away from the shit i can do. i dont need to worry about whats next, or how i will react to what ev it is. if this thing we do has taught me anything, its to live in the present moment as rightly as i can. maybe thats what my HPs will for me is, idk. when i use what ive been taught, i get the opportunity to succeed without the complications of self. whether or not i make mistakes while livin in right now, idk. all i can do is do it and see what the results are, keepin my will out of the equation. the simple things i can do to keep it simple are to live positively with my disease of alcoholism. simple shit like, dont drink, find a God for my life that is understandable to me, make positive choices in attitudes and behaviors, and let "never forget" be an essential part of anything i do. the miracle of this philosophy is that it reaches out and teaches me how to live with my imperfections. when i keep it simple, i get to learn, change, and grow. i aint gotta let the simple pleasures like money, gamblin, food, or sex overwhelm me. i aint gotta let them become my HP again. each day, each moment of each day, i do this, i deepen my recovery. allowin guilt or any other defect or shortcomin overtake me by lettin my humanness, my instincts, run wild in themselves, will be the underlyin cause of destructive livin for me. when i try to move a lil toward my HPs perfection, i get to remain happy, joyous, and free with peace of mind within. 1 day @ a time...