my daily reflections…

back in the days of doin my dirt, it wasnt beyond me to insert myself in anythin i thought my opinion mattered (and that was a lot). this especially happened when i was drinkin or gettin high. now when i wasnt drinkin or gettin high, i was too preoccupied with self to worry about what anybody else was sayin or doin. drunk or high, in the middle of everyones shit, sober, too scared of everythin outside of me to give a fuck. so, this mornins readin rings a bell with me. it reminds me that i dont have to be in fear or get involved in shit that aint my business. i aint tryin to get in the way of my recovery today by insertin me into places that dont need my unwanted opinion or that my ass dont need to be. personal inventory has helped me see the behaviors that always had me seekin a drink or needin to get high. i learned that when i tried to get in the middle of shit, it was usually for my own selfish pleasure or unhealthy profit. today i aint gotta run from myself, anythin, or anybody. i can live the structured life i want and need so my peace of mind doesnt get disturbed. it doesnt mean that i dont make myself available if needed, it just means that ive learned to respect others and the lives they wish to live. as i live my life the way i want, others can too. ive learned not to hold back and wait for friends to come to me, but to go halfway and to be met halfway, openly, and freely without showin my ass. recovery has taught me that there is a time for everythin. ive learned to wait patiently until the right time comes for me to get busy. the spiritual principle of ‘easy does it’ helps me practice and live ‘live and let live’. i aint gotta waste my energies tryin to get shit before im ready to have em before ive earned the right to receive em. i get to embrace the full implications of my nature that recovery has shown me how to do. if that means get busy, then i get busy. if it means rest, watch, and learn, i rest, watch, and learn. my HP will guide and direct me with the next right action because i trust His gift of spiritual intuition. practicin gratitude will help me more fully appreciate what has been offered me. bein grateful influences my attitude; it softens my harsh fears and takes the threat out of most new situations. livin my recovery means i greet the day, glad to be alive, so i can be gladdened by all the experiences in store for me. ive learned each experience im gifted makes a necessary contribution to my wholeness. ive been given deep and effective spiritual experiences which have revolutionized my whole attitude toward life, toward others, toward Gods universe, and the situations i get to live in. ive persevered and didnt give up before the miracle happened. 1 day @ a time...