my daily reflections…

when i practice the principle of spiritual awareness i dont have to worry about becomin complacent and rely upon self. recovery has taught me what i need to watch for when it comes to selfishness and self-sufficiency. i aint tryina say that i dont fall into the acts of relyin upon self, cause i do at times, all i want to convey is that when i sense myself startin to become self-righteous, i have tools to use to overcome it. the serenity prayer clearly reminds me of the only control i truly have. it reminds me that there is one who can grant me the peace of mind to accept the things that go on around me or within me. it reminds me that He can provide me the courage needed to use that acceptance when i am weak and cannot muster that courage by myself alone. it reminds me that there is a difference between me and everythin or anybody that i allow to get in the way of the acceptance and courage that He provides me. im an alcoholic, plain and simple! i know this! i am susceptible to self, the events around me, and have been taught through the spiritual principles the shit within me that can be affected, and the solutions to overcome those inner emotional, psychological, behavioral, and spiritual disturbances. i have to remain confident that what ive learned and what ive been taught that the response He provides may not be what i want, but is, what i need. all i have to do is remain content and do what He spiritually guides and directs me to do. my life doesnt stay the same, so, for me to think that what i may have used 20 yrs ago, 10 yrs ago, last year, last week, or yesterday, will save me, is relyin upon the complacency that drives me without even knowin it. my life, my recovery, and the world around me changes minute by minute. i have to reach out to Him and ask through quick prayer how to move forward, then listen through meditation for His spiritual intelligence and leadership, and then do His shepherded action. acceptin and welcomin the spiritual ingredient of change in my life, i get the opportunity to grow from within, outward. recovery has been fun for me, even through difficulty and blessins. i can enjoy findin different ways of bein outrageously playful. remainin spiritually aware ive found that askin for help from Him is a case of humility and not a cause for humiliation. 1 day @ a time...