my daily reflections…

when i came into the rooms nobody told me i had to choose a single means of a higher power. all they suggested was that i find one and make sure that i wasnt it. nobody told me i had to listen for my HPs intuitive knowledge in any certain way. they just suggested that i pray and await His thought for further guidance. as i have lived my recovery every single relationship i have been able to maintain has grown, includin the relationship i have with my HP. i have been able to choose a HP of my own conception and communicate with Him the way i choose. it is an adventure and as individually mine as i have made it. havin grown the spiritual principle of humility, much of the inferiority complex ive owned throughout my life has been lost. though i may still suffer at times from self-pity or low self-esteem, today i have the power to own my self-imposed inferiority complex and accept responsibility for it, so i may live with a light heart and a new confidence. i am able to open my mind and be at peace within so He may speak to me. i not only hear Him, but i listen and do His will as best as i humanly can. with the help of recovery and spirituality, i reinvented myself, ive developed a clear channel with which i can be patient and listen, ive grown to embrace a spiritual style. though feelins of terror and hopelessness push me to seek help from God, with this help comes renewed strength and faith that my life is cared for by a greater power than me when im attentive and pay attention. through prayer, meditation, and a conscious attempt to feel Gods presence in all situations, ive come to know and trust God more fully. the ability i have to listen today as i meditate was not learned in 1 day, 1 week, 1 month, or year, it has taken me time to nurture and grow it with an active attempt usin spiritual awareness. as ive persevered, my brain has cleared with the grace of clarity. with meditation, ive learned daily to spot, admit, and correct the flaws, usin meditation as the essence of character-buildin and good livin. its my individual adventure and journey. 1 day @ a time...