The following poems are by Author Jake D. Parent, and were written in memory of his beloved cousin Tim, whom died of a drug overdose in jail. Jake is also Co-Author and Editor of Hearts & Scars – 10 human stories of addiction, whom he dedicated to Tim also.
Jake is the author of Only the Devil Tells the Truth, a novel about a young man growing up in poverty and dealing with addiction.
The Hearts & Scars collection of stories shows how the deadly disease is a conflicted struggle, not simply of broken people, but one that encompasses the human condition that affects us all.
The book consists of two sections. The first is a series of short fictional stories that portray individuals suffering from active addiction. The second is made up of real life tales of recovery, written by the people who experienced the journey themselves.
The book can be downloaded free from Amazon.
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A Poem for Tim
Today I wish I could go back
To jumping out of tree forts
And on the trampoline
Off the diving board
Leaping from bunk beds that seemed as tall as mountains
Back to playing with the bucket of He-Man toys
To the McDonalds playland
And rice kicks in Mortal Kombat
Back to opening presents on Christmas Eve
Back to goats and boxers and frogs in the pool filters
I’d even go back to growing up and drifting apart
Back to following the same ugly path as each other
Talking in my dad’s kitchen about getting shot
It was so good to see you then
We were in the same boat
Floating toward long-term consequences both of us could see
But neither of us could understand
I will always see your face when I look in the mirror
Reminding me that you went right when you should have gone left
How easily it could have been me
And the tears in my eyes when I found out it was you
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The Next Ridge
Everything you ever wanted
The whole world exactly how you pictured it
You were always so close
To the perfect morning
When nothing hurts
When the sun shines in from the window and blankets your baby’s face
Those days always seemed real enough to grab
But always out of reach
Behind one more obstacle
Over one more hill
Then the good kind of morning would have come
You would have worn your smile
Instead of hiding it in your gut
Letting it fester and dissolve
You died of a broken heart
It suffocated
Overwhelmed by genetics and a few bad breaks
There were a thousand times you could have chosen another way
Plenty of times you tried
But found a reason to get back on the wheel
Always planning to get off the next time around
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Looking in the Mirror
It could have easily been me
Dying
Alone
In a jailhouse bunk bed
No one to hug
No one to squeeze my hand as I try to hold my last breath
Wishing for one more chance to take it all back
Regretting for eternity that I caused so much pain
3 Comments
Thank you for sharing.I’ve been in a jail bunk bed many times and know how lonely it truly is.God bless you Jake
Thank you for putting a compassionate modern identity to those who are, or have suffered the pain and anguish of addiction.
At times it seems that we ride by the skin of our teeth on a daily basis in recovery and then others we are blessed with the sunshine that warms our very being.
My daughter will turn 20 on Monday and only through Grace is she still able to walk with me and her beautiful son, she was spared.
Eternally grateful though deeply in wonder we move forward one step at a time.
Julie xx
Heart breaking and poignant, beautiful and simply put. Thank you.