I am responsible.

I am Responsible, when Anyone, Anywhere, Reaches Out for Help, I want the Hand of AA always to be there, And for that I AM RESPONSIBLE. Just what does this mean. I am writing this to myself as a reminder to what this pledge means for my recovery. I am not only responsible to help addicts or alcoholics I am responsible Today to be of maximum usefulness to GOD and my fellow human being. And I fall short everyday. I am responsible for my actions and my reactions everyday. As an example, I have known people with spiteful intentions, to arouse jealousy and resentments toward others on purpose, my reactions toward those actions is my responsibility, whether they are as inappropriate as the action doesn't matter, any negative action met with negative reaction is a failure on my part. I am human I make mistakes, but I can use this failure as an example of how to turn that negative into a positive moving forward by my actions toward others. None of us are perfect but by attempting to practice the responsibility pledge intherooms of recovery to go to people whose actions and attitudes I despise, and ask to be helpful, means to me that GOD uses the natural to perform the supernatural everyday. There are many people both past, present and in the future I will never be able to help, but Today I am not only Responsible, Today I am Willing, Willing to Learn, Willing to Practice, Willing to Ask for Forgiveness, but most importantly Today I am Willing to Forgive and yes I am included in this category. My being willing to Kill Myself opened my eyes up to the deep seated feelings of rejection, fear, anger or rage, and contempt I have felt toward myself yet again. So, other peoples opinions of me is none of my business, my Business is to be of Maximum usefulness to GOD and my fellow HUMAN BEING. Today I ask myself AM I WILLING TO BE RESPONSIBLE. Today that answer is YES