my daily reflections…

if there is only one thing in my recovery, i have done perfectly it is the admission to others, my HP, and most importantly, self, that i am an alcoholic, powerless over the certain unmanageability it causes within my life. what makes me successful in this admission is the fact that i havent taken one drink or drug, since the day my recovery started this last time. another thing that aids me in this admission is the practice of the remainin spiritual principles. each step that follows the first is a practice i will probably never be able to perfect until after my death. that does not mean i cannot make progress in the practice of each, it just means that i can accept success or failure in each, learnin from the attempt, on how i can use them better in the future. recovery has taught me that if i continue to seek my HPs grace, livin as He provides, utilizin each step as best as i can at any given moment, i dont ever have to fear taken that next first drink again. by merely workin toward guileless progress in my recovery, i get the opportunity to show faith in my HP and the program of recovery. as i remain vigilant in my efforts to move away from the victimization my alcoholism brings, i need to accept that i may still suffer from it and be prepared to move on. i have heard it said that day follows night; after the rain comes sunshine; better days inevitably follow. i must remember that the workin of the program in my daily life will not be easy as it is somethin i have never done before; sufferin as i practice this very hard work is essential in the moldin of my spiritual life. as i move forward, even as it may seem very slowly, takin the time to rest so i may gather my thoughts and let more good flow in, learnin from both success and failure in my efforts, i get to presently live the freedom from the old bondage and haste of now. i get to understand that immediate recovery is impossible. but with time, patience, and perseverance, recovery comes. when i pocket my pride, takin the time to illuminate every twist of character, every dark cranny of the past, i get to look the world in the eye, i get to be alone at perfect peace and ease, my fears fall from me, and i begin to feel the nearness of my HP. after takin, the 100% step, i get to heal within makin progress toward creatin my personal spiritual experience. 1 day @ a time...