my daily reflections…

this has been a savin grace many times in my recovery. when i have become agitated or doubtful, i have stopped, and asked my HP for the right thought or action before proceedin forward. this quick little time of assessment, inextricably, has never failed me in stoppin my spiritual malady from showin its ass. many times, the quick little prayers go as such, “ima sick bitch. how can i be helpful in this situation? God save me from bein angry. Thy will be done.” when i humble myself, keepin my poop trap shut, the amazin promises of this thing we do happen in my life. fear of what ev pride/false sense of ego im thinkin is fixin ta git stepped all over leaves me. within that split second of pause i intuitively know how to handle the situation in front of me. when i dont react or act to a stimulus that in the past i woulda lost my shit over, i realize that God is doin for me what i could not do for myself without recovery. i have learned a new way of livin and am convinced that no matter how much fun i got out of showin my ass in the past, that life never was as good as the life i can build usin the spiritual principles of recovery. honesty, hope, and humility show me that the faith i have in my HP and recovery, provide me with self-confidence and integrity. when i set my deepest affections on things spiritual, not on things material, i am one with God, and with no human aspiration i think i can reach, is higher than this. when i stop takin myself so seriously, any problem i may be presently facin, usually passes with an outcome that wouldnt have happened had i used my spiritual malady to solve the enigma. learnin how to slow down so i may understand fully what is right in front of me, allows surrender, acceptance, and tolerance. my HP knows better than i how to handle most every situation i face. motivation may get me goin, but discipline keeps me growin. recovery has taught me how to remain disciplined when runnin my mouth or committin some action or behavior that would surely cause another or myself harm. 1 day @ a time...