my daily reflections…

its been my experience the only thing which stops me from bein willin is my own self-will. pride is most def a factor in hinderin my ability to try somethin ive never done before. when i become willin i begin to surrender my self-will within. i resist surrender coz in my flawed view it makes me less than. how i view myself, or how i fear others see me, keeps me from admittin failure of any kind. this false sense of pride, false in the meanin that i cloud my perception from the reality around me, when in reality what i think others think is probably not as important as i feel it is. willingness takes effort mannn. it means i become open to new things, ideas, opportunity, and understandin, learnin different ways to let go of old behaviors, that to some degree, offered me pleasure, or a twisted sense of relief. ive learned, when i genuinely, and consistently cultivate an attitude of humility, open-mindedness, and willingness, i am on the path to a life of rich, rewardin love. i then get to use faith. i get to understand i have an HP who has loved me into bein. and gives a love to me throughout life, that never ends. 1 day @ a time...