my daily reflections…

when i remain honest in my recovery i understand i cant do this recovery thing alone. my past experience allows me the knowledge and wisdom of such an irresponsible idea. if i could have done it back then, before my recovery this time began, i guess i wouldnt be livin this time in recovery. fortunately for me, i surrendered, i accepted, and i began a journey that demands i have the help of others, and most importantly, my HP. because ive kept an honest desire to stop drinkin, this program of recovery has offered me the best it has. i have yet to be told by another i am not allowed in a meetin. for the last 5,762 days in a row, each mornin i have surrendered my day and my will to my HP and have moved forward with an honest desire to help another; just as what was done for me when i came into the rooms. within the rooms i have found me in the interaction with others and with them i get to enjoy the here and now. i never truly felt balance before i came into the rooms. recovery, others in the rooms, have taught me that responsibility always shadows balance because it stresses the need for me to be accountable for the life i live; indeed, i have a duty to pay my dues. it is also just as important for my spiritual life to share with others, especially those in need. today im able to live this balance, because i understand i cannot do it all alone. to stay healthy, a balanced life considers all my needs: my need for friends, work, love, family, play, private time, recovery time, and spiritual time, time with my HP. if i get out of balance, the intuitive inner voice will let me know, and i need to listen. for me to remain feelin emotionally, psychologically, behaviorally, and spiritually balanced, i simply need those in the fellowship to help show me how i fit in. bein a part of somethin greater than i has given me the strength to pray over the things that i used to drink over. the direct linkage among self-examination, meditation, and prayer, allows me to be me, and the result is an unshakable foundation for life. with others, i get to remain free. 1 day @ a time...