my daily reflections…

today, i need others in my life to help me create the life i wish to live, i simply need ya’ll. without ya’ll in recovery, i dont think i could make recovery happen in my life. i tried in the past to get along without others and look what it got me, writin a post about the hope recovery offers. some may see this as piss-poor lifestyle self-management, others may see it as the gift recovery offers one who has surrendered to his disease of alcoholism. which ev it is seen as, for me, its puttin me over my disease of alcoholism and addiction. its not that i cant live today without alcohol or drugs, because i prob could. but i have seen what a dry drunk looks like, i have seen what a dry drunk feels like, i have seen the effects of someone who thinks they dont need others to help them not drink. what ive experienced with these people are ones who are not happy, still feel victimized, are angry, are full of low self-esteem, feel the rabid effects of ego while tryina hide themselves in full view of others. i dont wanna be lonely anymore, i wanna remain sober, in recovery, feelin what inner happiness and peace of mind are like without usin people, places, or things negatively. so, i have an opportunity today, a choice to make. live with others or be a miserable bitch. today i choose unity, i choose inner happiness, i choose peace of mind, i choose the cherished quality the common welfare the recoverin society has to offer. today i am not cut off from God, others, or myself. i am whole and feel the forgiveness, hope, and love of others so i can give it in return. i get to live a sober life that is a happy life; because by givin up drinkin, ive gotten rid of my loneliness, self-sufficiency, ego, and remorse. with the unity of this thing we do i believe that all sacrifice and all sufferin are of value to me. when i am in pain, i understand that i am bein tested and can trust God, recovery, and the fellowship to help me no matter how low i feel cause i understand it is His plan for my spiritual experience and growth. with unity i get to bridge the gap between knowledge and wisdom with the experience from my mistakes. i get to remain vulnerable to my own, and the worlds, enigmas so i can continue to learn more about myself makin me better for others. i get to live in the present with strength and faith. i get to live each moment as a new opportunity to let go of all that has trapped me in the past, i am free. ive learned how self-restraint can keep me from emotional booby traps baited with pride and vengefulness. it all allows me to honestly live whole and true to myself, so this thing we do called recovery gets to move forward and help others who are just like me. its like, all for one & one for all. 1 day @ a time...