my daily reflections…

the attitude i had most of my life was always reflected in the relationships i had with others. always geared toward fulfillin my selfish wants and dreamt up delusional needs. dependent on what i wanted to use another fer, or get from em, dictated how my attitude was toward others. and this always affected how i felt inside. with very self-destructive habits i couldnt see beyond me. life was out to get me so, i had better strike first. recovery showed me how these attitudes were the bane of my existence. it taught me how to look at myself and manage these self-centered defects and shorcomins. it took time too, mannn, it wasnt an overnight matter. battlin myself fer the true integrity it took to change my outlook upon life was epic. inward fear and anger are formidable foes, which came right from my alcoholism. i needed change, recovery taught me how to live in the moment as best as i humbly could. bein thankful and grateful in the moment brought me out of the alcoholic pits of hell. today, from then, ive changed my outlook on life toward hopeful. 1 day @ a time...