my daily reflections…

realizin that when i am filled with my spiritual malady that i have the characteristic of a narcissistic egocentric core, dominated by feelins of omnipotence, intent on maintainin at all costs my inner integrity, isnt somethin i am proud of. but if i am to use what recovery has taught me, humility, i get to gain the hope that i can overcome my faults with the help of my HP and recovery. and the work doesnt stop there either, there are other things i need to do. use faith, do personal inventory, talk about my alcoholism, pray, and meditate, admit my wrongs when i have realized ive done em, and make amends. these are the core of my recovery and often times are hard to accomplish. but with time, when i practice each spiritual principle separately, or in any combination, i get to remain sober, i get to remain whole, i get to live with inner happiness and peace of mind. surrenderin my alcoholism, each of the things mentioned prior to God with prayer and then listenin quietly for His answer, helps me gain courage and strength so i can do the recovery necessary. when i live my recovery as ive learned through the big book, i get the real feelin of satisfaction with myself, self-respect, and a feelin of friendliness toward the world. when i surrender and practice love, i get to see good in all people, those i like and also those who fret me and go against the grain. its been my experience that the more love i give away, the more i will have. and whether love is returned or not, to be honest, i get to feel the hope of it comin back sometime. today i understand that it is within my control to change the outcomes within my life. as i live my spiritual experience, creatin an individual adventure with my HP and recovery, ive found it is somethin which i work out in my own way. surely i have guidelines, concepts, and instruction from recovery, the way i experience it isnt like another, even as the objective is always the same, sobriety and recovery. by keepin it simple, and surrenderin spiritually, i will continue to improve my conscious contact with God, with His grace, wisdom, and love. 1 day @ a time...