my daily reflections…

responsibility is an action and behavior i tried to avoid in my last days of drinkin. i had only one responsibility at that time, to drink, it was the only solution i had for the unrelentin emotions of troubled strife within. i did not want to grow up, i did not want accountability, and i was unwillin to accept the maturity of adulthood. recovery taught me that it was time to grow up, that it was time to take responsibility for the actions i had taken which were all selfish and self-seekin. i hadnt the courage to look deep within while drinkin. recovery gave me an avenue to build a relationship with somethin greater than me, which in turn gave me the courage to do what was necessary to change from the inside outward. what an undertakin this was for me, it was very hard work. it is a blessin today to have gotten past those times. i now have enough intuition within, graced by God, to know when these egotistical and self-centered thoughts try to turn into action. red flags go up and i know it is time to share these thoughts with others and face them wholeheartedly. 1 day @ a time…