my daily reflections…

today i understand this gift is held fer only a few, not that it limits its opportunities to all, but is made available fer those who may not need it but want it. im not afraid to share my recovery with anybody who may ask, and i understand not all need to know it, though they may inadvertently experience its ripplin effect. what i understand most is, i, need it and want it. not forgettin the bankrupt ideas of my early recovery, i still have the desire to live my recovery in such a manner that i make myself available fer those who show an interest and those who may not know they are like i once was. love and tolerance is a code i must live by if i want to live in such a manner others get to see, and feel, the lifestyle changes ive made. and it is important fer me to remember, it isnt important whether they recognize it; what is important is that i do it with humility. not all will want what i have to offer and that is ok. it took me several tries and a bazillion failures to get where i am today and i dont think i want to trade it in. as long as i continue to practice what ive learned to heal myself, give the things i cannot control up to my HP, and carry the message the way i was taught, those who may want it, and may possibly need it, will materialize if God sees fit. its a simple spiritual axiom mannn, i cannot give away what i do not have. 1 day @ a time...