my daily reflections…

in an effort to live beyond the life my alcoholism had created durin the days of doin my dirt, givin away and lettin go of the personality traits which had developed as a result of my alcoholism, was a rather chillin proposition. these characters had kept me safe. they were mannerisms which had allowed me to live in my alcoholism with protection against the world outside of me. recovery asked me to stop doubtin the new realities i was learnin about myself. i had learned so much about me through the stringent work i had done with my sponsor through personal inventory. i had seen, in the rooms, what freedom could occur if i was only honest, open-minded, and willin to allow myself to let these selfish natures go. whether they were good or bad, i was at a turnin point, i had come to the fork in the road, behaviorally, emotionally, psychologically, and spiritually. it became time to truly start a new and different personality, the one i had stuffed down so readily, becomin an active participant of a new journey toward the freedoms i had heard others speak of. today i get to live that freedom, hope, forgiveness, and love. 1 day @ a time...