my daily reflections…

faith in my HP isnt a question i need to ponder much today. havin taken the time to do meaninful and deep personal inventory over the years of my recovery, how could i question Him in my life. there have been many times ive thrown my arms up, givin situations or circumstances to Him and He has worked the miracles of solution as only He can. my part in it was to let go, acceptin the outcome of the miracle He so craftly set before me. today i still get to grow my spirituality as i continue to give up the shit that baffles me and do as i perceive He would have me. lookin back at how i used to feel and act, or react to things, and how i do today, there is no question that He has worked miracles in me, my attitudes, and outlook on life. usin all of the wisdom and experience ive gained the knowledge of what faith means to me and how i can continue to use it to continue to grow. ive learned, over my time in recovery, to admit that both, faith and recovery, continue to be a blessin, and have become somethin i cannot live without. ive found the lifeline, the line of rescue, it is the line from my soul to God. on one end of the lifeline is my faith and on the other end is Gods power. as i enjoy the life ive been blessed with today, i get to feel it as never before. and my response, is to join in and become one with it. all it takes is a little self-care. as i grow and evolve in my recovery, my job has been to learn to appreciate the gifts, even as i do what i can to heal the emotional injuries. i cannot change the past, but i can alter my relationship to it usin faith as a keystone. i do this by bein willin to explore the darkness of some of the difficult things ive experienced and by slowly connectin the dots to see how those early episodes can still influence me. as the reservoir of my human darkness, my broken pieces within can hinder me at times still today, they are also the wellspring of creative expression in healin me, usin faith to grow my spiritual experience and enhance self and spiritual awareness. shinin the light of awareness upon the shadow of my wounds helps me to diminish the pain. today i understand that life happens between the good and bad. what my part is, is to humbly rely on Him, cause He enables me to match calamity with serenity. serenity isnt freedom from me or my emotions; it is peace while i work with me and on my emotions usin faith. 1 day @ a time...