my daily reflections…

my initial 4th and 8th step personal moral inventorys enlightened me to the many problems i had created for others and myself. i was able to perceive, then understand with the help of my sponsor, how selfishness, self-seekin, and fear, were the cause of the harms i had executed. lookin beyond what others had done, this resolute look into my own mistakes gave me a frame of reference to comprehend how years of mistrust and scrofulous delusion turned me into the alcoholic i had become. i had no logical defense against em. today, i still live with irrational thinkin, insane behavior, and spiritual illness. what is dif from then and now is, i am aware of these defects and can use positive solutions, instead of alcohol to live through and past them. i get to practice rationalism, balanced action, and healthful spiritual rehabilitative cognition. altruistic humility, sincere honesty, and confident courage, are the paradoxes to the character i used to live in. 1 day @ a time...