my daily reflections…

i reckon i wouldnt be human if i didnt subject myself to the juicy narrative of a tale handed down and rolled around for a while, gettin juicier as it went from one to another. bein human, this type of talk has personal benefits for me. each of these pleasures, malicious glee, smugness, a feelin of power, titillation, catharsis, conversation, feelin involved, and enjoyable learnin. they are feelins within which make me feel a part of society. these are characters and shortcomins ive partaken in, even while in recovery. even as this schadenfreude may be comfortin and seem lighthearted, today i must pay mind to what it does to others and how these words, behaviors, and actions also put a mark on my personal integrity. and just as this mornins daily suggests, i aint got much business tryin to proclaim my own righteousness. this is an area i must continue to evolve in and grow away from. after all, its my own checklist i must concentrate on if i want to continue a program of healthy recovery, not everybody elses. 1 day @ a time…