my daily reflections…

i remember the foxhole prayers; prayin to a santa god to save me from the consequences i created. makin promises to change my ways and when i did escape the repercussions i had dreamt up, i went right back to doin the same shit that created the corollary of my piss poor, self-willed, behavior and thinkin. then, i lacked the rightful faith to even receive results that were honest and dutiful. recovery showed me these inconsistencies through personal moral inventory. i understand today, if i want to receive rightful gifts of recovery from my HP, i MUST do my part to receive em. ive found in my recovery and the study of the faith i have toward the spirituality i seek, many times i may not get what i want. what ive experienced is, receivin the humility and integrity of emotional health to surrender and accept courageously the consequences i need, whether they are favored for me or against me. 1 day @ a time…