my daily reflections…

ive learned through recovery that thankfulness is an emotion and gratefulness is an action. for me to be able to practice my program of recovery i have to keep with a level of humility that allows me to let go of self. for me to entertain or remain full of conceit is an avenue toward lettin my spiritual malady show its ass; it plays into my character defect of narcissism. arrogance is no way for me to keep a relationship with my HP. however, when i remain thankful for the change of perception recovery has gifted me with, i get the opportunity to change my character faults of conceit, arrogance, and narcissism. life becomes not so much about me then. i gain the ability to be wrong and vulnerable. as i continue to let go of self and rely more on the guidance of my HP, i lose the need to try to control every aspect of my life or anothers. i get to live by the grace of God and give the gifts ive been shown how to give from those who came into the rooms before me. gettin over the soul sickness of my spiritual malady provides me with the desire to give love rather than take it. and givin the finest emotion i know, love, fills me with the abundance of humility i crave. and as i mentioned prior, gratitude is the behavior/action of sharin my love, my joy, my happiness, my time, my food, and my fortune gladly with all. when i stay focused and committed to thankfulness and gratitude, i get to face life one step at a time. acceptin powerlessness over self, people, places, and things actually grants me the power the spiritual principles of recovery promise. i dont have to try to argue, manipulate, or cajole to try to gain some kind of undeserved control over anyone or anythin, i am free. livin with a sense of compassion, love, and self-restraint, i get to show others the thankfulness i have within with gratitude. speakin or actin hastily or rashly, only shows another that my ability to be fair-minded and tolerant of others and myself are only words, words that make the integrity and humility i wish to have evaporate on the spot. ive learned that the surest way to unhappiness is to concentrate only on myself, throwin thankfulness, gratitude, and love away with the wind. 1 day @ a time...