my daily reflections…

what i really have is a daily reprieve contingent on the maintenance of my spiritual condition. every day is a day when i must carry the vision of my HPs will into all of my activities. this is the key to all the growth i have received while my recovery has progressed and evolved. each mornin i get the opportunity to give up my spiritual malady in exchange for the will of my HP. early in my recovery i did not know if this idea of a Higher Power would work for me or not. i had to try it in bits and pieces. as i did that, i was able to see and feel the results of those moments of givin myself up. today, this keystone, has become a foundational part of my recovery. today its not all about me and what i can get. surely i do these things in my recovery and receive the blessins from those works, but by doin it under the guidance of my HP, i get to receive the miracle of recovery, without expectation. i get to give to receive. i get to give it up to Him, i get to continue to walk toward triumphant freedom under the care and direction of my Him. today i can laugh at myself. i dont take myself too seriously. i am continuin to grow and evolve within. i used to be too serious havin the "poor me" syndrome and sittin on my pity pot demandin attention. i aint gotta do that today, this is the freedom and bondage from self the simple concept of a Power greater than myself provides me. i get to accept that change is inevitable, and desirable. sometimes, when the winds of change begin to rustle, i aint too certain the change is for the better. but i can trust that my HP has a plan in mind, even when i dont know where the changes are leadin. with the 3rd steps concept of faith, i can go through character-buildin sufferin with peace of mind. even as i may see failure and misery around me sometimes, i get to understand and know that ive been transformed by the priceless asset of humility. the new ideals and new attitudes i experienced early in my recovery are still bringin me a new life. today i get to persevere in doin what seems right by carryin out my HPs leadin, as far as i can understand it. 1 day @ a time...