my daily reflections…

my willingness to maintain my recovery on a daily basis, even more so, on a moment-by-moment basis, needs to be assimilated as a necessity so that i may continue to live a life that has healthy boundaries set for my basic human natures. this even means that i consider the consequences of my actions in any given moment and their possible future implications. selfishness, dishonesty, resentment, and fear can, and will, come. other emotions like sorrow, gladness, yearnin, hope, and love belong to me, in all times and in all places; it is up to me how i process em and learn to live a positive lifestyle with em. self-will will try to rationalize and justify these feelins when my ego or pride begins to get stepped on. when i feel these emotions, my ability to recognize em gives me the opportunity to amend em with spiritual principles that continue to help me grow past em. its not that they are all necessarily bad or wrong, they are held within me so that i may address situations and circumstances as they are meant to be addressed. how i use em is the determinin factor as to how they contribute to my life. they are the music within that lets me know i am human. recovery has blessed me with the ability to organize my life. it has offered me solutions and ways to overcome myself and my disease of alcoholism. step 5 introduced me to a way to help organize my life. it suggested that i, after doin a personal inventory, discern the exact natures of my wrongs and admit em to myself, to my HP, and to another human bein so that i begin to live the spiritual principle of integrity. step 10s spiritual principle of perseverance suggests that i continue this “house cleanin” each moment/day, of my life. when i stay current with my emotions, relationships, and belief systems i get to continue to heal my body, emotions, psychological state of bein, soul, and then grow my spirituality. when i confront truths by truly explorin the nature of wrongs, i eventually forgive myself, and others, with full knowledge of em. it assists me in clearin the static that happens within so that i may continue to live the music that is within. remainin willin to wrestle my demons helps me to persevere in the moment. and as stated, the music of my life is the ability to feel without reactin to pain in negative ways. often times that pain may even be the measure of my resistance to change. unremittin inventories help me grow emotionally, psychologically, and spiritually; with em i get to persevere. 1 day @ a time...