my daily reflections…

recovery has provided me with ideas and concepts i may have known in the past but let em slip away. livin a life solely based on my self-will, i cast away the lessons i was taught by others in search of an inner completeness i could not find. throughout my years prior to recovery i had been given tools that were solid and time weathered. unfortunately, i thought i knew better and tried my own way, every time tryin to work an outcome a different way, only to receive the fruits of a repeated outcome, self-defeat, and incomprehensible demoralization. i aint tryina say my whole life before recovery was bad, cause it wasnt, alls im tryna convey is that my life, ran on self-will, only brought me the same results time after time. what recovery has done for me is allow me to challenge lifelong philosophy and morals. ive gone on a journey, down a different path, that has provided me with a way to relearn lessons ive forgotten. it has been an adventure that has broadened my horizons and cleared my body, mind, and soul so that i may live a new and excitin destiny. ive been able to connect with peace and discovered a connection to true self, a flow of life, the certainty that all will remain well if only i do a few certain things, things i used to think were beneath me. this journey into spiritual awareness has provided spiritual progress. spiritual progress comes to me when i seek a relationship with HP, with myself, and with others. this means that i must take the time to practice and live the things i may have brushed off in the past, those lessons others tried to teach me. in buildin these relationships i have to follow simple suggestion so i may become receptive to inspiration by allowin empty spaces in my life, some solitude, and idleness, to live a program for livin. reviewin my day, readin daily inspirational readins, prayer and meditation help me in the journey of life today. and when i am humble enough, i get to become receptive to inspiration, to a deeper wisdom, to that part of life i do not command, bein divorced from self-pity, dishonest or self-seekin motives, helpin me to grow spiritual progress. when i try to live exclusively by my own individual strength and intelligence today, a workin faith in a HP eludes me. today i get to use faith, the tools recovery teaches, and use willingness, so i may continue to persevere. 1 day @ a time...