my daily reflections…

i still need to implement the solutions i learned early in my recovery. recallin all the unmanageability, lack of self-control, and absolute selfishness can still cause me fear even with years of practiced recovery. this is where i must use the self-discipline recovery has taught me to use. i get the opportunity to place the solutions i have found to be successful so that those times of morbid reflection dont have to be obsessed over. when i have a firm grip on my thinkin i dont have to let those times turn into emotions that begin to guide my behaviors and actions, causin harm to others or myself. i cannot control the situations or circumstances life may bring me, but i can control my reaction to them. one of those ways is to use the hope and faith i have in my HP. with Him i gain the courage to overcome the fear that may linger within. i believe my solutions and recovery have already been given me by God but i must use self-discipline to discover from within through the wisdom of my recovery. when i seek out what is truly in my mind and heart, i dont have to let resentment, not gettin my way in the past, anger, not gettin my way in the present, or fear, not gettin my way in the future, have to be shit that obnubilates the present moment. i can let the hope and faith that ive learned through recovery, be a solution i can live right now. it is no longer enough for me to know my problems; i need also to talk about and work toward solvin em. and with sponsorship im granted the creative gift of communication. ive learned that the five senses im naturally given from my humanness are my means of communication with the material world. they are the links between my physical life and the material manifestations around me. but i cannot rely wholly on them. i must hush my mind and bid all my senses be still so i may become attuned to receive the music my HP has to offer. it is an opportunity to strengthen my faith. remainin open-minded to my personal conviction and as willin to listen as the dyin can be, i get to stand ready to walk through anything, usin recovery, which will lift the merciless obsessions of fear from me. 1 day @ a time...