my daily reflections…

they told me when i came into the rooms if i wanted to get better they would show me a way that worked for them. i reckon this last time, i was ready, cause im still doin what they suggested so many years ago. i have a sponsor who guided me through each step. shared with me his experience, what happened, and what it was like today. just as others, he did what was suggested by his sponsor. as i continue to live and practice the suggested steps, the old patterns of behavior have shriveled up and died, and the suggestions have become musts. ive been re-born and have a different will, other than mine to follow. as ive gradually eliminated as much selfishness as i can, ive found growth for the love of my HP and fellow human beins as bein a goal in life. i couldnt get sober on my own. i needed the help of others. with willingness i found God and other sober people. and with them ive found that the more i seek to live the spiritual life, the more ive realized it is based upon a connection to others. i had to be willin to give up control over everythin in my life and that wasnt easy at first. what i found through my recovery was that when i tried to control everythin, i gave other people, events, and diseases, such as alcoholism, control over me. i learned that i never got the results i wanted from controllin or tryin to control people. what i received for my efforts was an unmanageable life, whether that unmanageability was inside me or in external events. a willingness to do shit someone elses way, givin up control, freed me so i could get sober and stay that way. today i get to live a life that is manageable. i had to be willin to not close my mind to all spiritual concepts. my attitudes of intolerance and belligerent denial had to be let go of. the twelve steps, a manuscript for rational livin, helped me realize how to be flexible and willin so i could continue to live free on an upward path toward peace of mind. 1 day @ a time...