my daily reflections…

what i like about this program of recovery is its autonomy. its very democratic undertones allow me to express my recovery as i see how i can fit my life into it. i remember a conversation with my sponsor early in my recovery about how i needed to work a particular step. he said there is no one way, as everybody has a different background as to how they came into the rooms, the steps are designed that they may be worked and lived as they are applied to each persons specific personal problems. for me, that was attraction to the program. i have learned over my time that as long as i remain willin to accept the answers i find when dealin with a specific problem in my life, that the programs spiritual principles have an answer when i am open enough to receive it. it has been my experience that the only trouble i find when workin toward a solution to a personal problem i have, is my want to try to change the step or spiritual principle to meet my problem. it is just so that i cannot do it that way. i must work or live my personal problem, freely, to meet the step or spiritual principle. did ya catch that? i know i didnt when i first started. i thought they were rules that had no room to bend. today i understand that as i mold my problem around a spiritual principle, i am apt to find the solution to the problem. and many times, it may even mean wrappin my problem around several spiritual principles to receive the solution. when i take responsibility for the problems in my life, and not that i may cause each one, but how i deal with what comes to me, i find i can mold the problem around a spiritual principle and work out the solution to the problem. sometimes i may not like the answer, but thats not the point, the point is that i use what ive learned about myself to overcome the problem. isnt that an essence of freedom, the ability to use recovery to answer my problems rather than let anger or frustration be the 1st action that leads to the ego trip of poor action. today i aint gotta remain trapped in the victim role and act in ways that further self-victimization. i aint gotta let compulsive patterns of old behavior close my mind to positive, free, solutions. i am free to set healthy boundaries that help me work a problem out usin spiritual principles. when i sense the bondage of self, i can ask my HP to help set me free from it. 1 day @ a time...