my daily reflections…

though there may have been a time when i questioned if i were an alcoholic, today i understand that i am. through honest personal inventory i have become armed with the facts about myself and have surrendered and accepted that i am powerless and my life, though still at times may be unmanageable when i start tryin to run shit, was even more so before my recovery began while out doin my dirt. admittin complete defeat to my disease of alcoholism and addiction has opened doors for me that enabled me to grow from the inside outward. i have found that as long as i live this moment, this day, as best as i can, i have an opportunity to clean up my past and create a better future for myself that does not include the self-made chaos and misunderstandin of days past. i get to live an effective life of purpose and meanin. i have been gifted the grace of God and get to live with an understandin that He does for me what i simply cannot when i am honest, open-minded, and willin to accept His will. the miracle of recovery is that today i am not baffled by actions, behaviors, and thinkin that used to confound others, and most importantly, confuse myself. surrenderin to the reality that i am merely human has opened the door for humility and integrity. with willingness i have a faith in somethin greater than i that i can live with my alcoholism/addictions with a solution that works when all other ideas and self-thought concepts fail. though fear may come, i have the wisdom of usin faith and hope to overcome ego, codependency, and self-neglect, welcomin peace, trust, acceptance, and safety. a simple, but not easy, commitment to the responsibility of ownin my own recovery provides me with the tools needed to live a life with freedom, without the bonds of self, material, financial, or relationship problems. as awareness, acceptance, and action grow within, i get to live emotional, psychological, and spiritual balance. 1 day @ a time...