my daily reflections…

i cannot tell ya’ll that every minute of every day i carry with me peace of mind. even with years in recovery i still have to take the time to feel shit out, to think about whats goin on around me. yes, recovery has made many of the decisions i have to make much easier, because i have experience usin the spiritual principles, but im still human mannn. when i lean on what my experience, before and after recovery tells me, i get to use that wisdom to make choices that are healthy for me. and when i am infallible and cant find the solutions to the questions i have within, i get to call out to trusted friends in recovery and my HP for guidance. i aint gotta repeat, in reverse, yesterdays mistakes. i have options available to me that recovery offers, to find healthy solutions. sometimes, i even have to use, that one word, patience, and even listen to those who have the wisdom, knowledge, and experience where i dont. i even have to ask my HP to teach me to listen with an ear of understandin. even though im programmed for survival, im not immune to my ego that tenaciously holds on to self-servin behaviors and does not easily give up old patterns, even those i must shift in order to heal. so, inspiration sometimes eludes me and has to wait til i can come in tune with reality and let go of pride, stubbornness, independence, and my resistance to gettin help. then there are the times when prayer and meditation bring instances when i feel at one with all of life, am healin, and filled with lovin kindness. when i experience this connectedness, i feel a tender openin toward all that is, filled with a depth of kindness, understandin, forgiveness, hope, and love beyond ordinary reality. i get to find that good results are beyond question and are matters of knowledge and experience based on meditation and prayer. often, they offer wisdom beyond the usual capability of my own wisdom, knowledge, and experience. and i get to remain in prayer until somethin happens. now aint this a practice in humility? 1 day @ a time...