my daily reflections…

a few years back a friend and i were talkin about insecurities and fears. i was relayin to em that though i may still have em, i have solutions today that i can use to overcome em as opposed to the past. they told me that since i was in recovery, and had formed a relationship with God, that it was impossible that i still had fears. i disagreed with what they said and still do today. im not someone who doesnt live in reality, nor am i blind to the fact that i am human. i get that i can give my fears to my HP and that He will take them from me when i am willin to give em up to Him, but im still human. i still fall prey to my humanness. if i fail to recognize fear when i sense it, i may as well claim that i dont suffer from the disease of alcoholism anymore. recovery has taught me that for me to live blindly to the world around me sets me up for failure. natural fears offer me protection from things known and seen and things unknown and unseen. when i sense them i immediately use what recovery has taught me to let loose of em. key to my awareness of my insecurities and fears is my ability to not succumb to unrealistic demands given from me to my HP, self, or others. just as this mornins readin suggests, when i go to givin into my fears without the use of spiritual principles, i set myself up for unsatisfied demands, a state of continual disturbance or frustration, and cannot find peace of mind. im not God, and i am human, so i must use the sense of humility recovery has taught me so i dont stumble over my fears, reactin to em with unhealthy, emotional, psychological, behavioral, or spiritual unbalance. today i can let go of fear due to the personal inventory ive done in the 4th and 8th steps. ive become aware of myself and inventory has provided me with the knowledge to use prior experience and the wisdom ive gained from those steps against fear when it comes. identifyin it, recognizin it for what it is, givin it up with prayer, and meditatin for the answers to come when i am confused or overwhelmed by fear is the way i manage fear today. i aint gotta go to facin it usin the unmanageability of past days. today i get to be willin to go through a time of testin, and trust in my HP for the outcome. in a comfortable place, i can simply relax, breathe, and with a relaxed mind, clarity springs. i have found freedom from my fatal obsession, demands, and fears. 1 day @ a time...