my daily reflections…

its my understandin that shortcomins are things i should be doin that i aint. they are blocks to my growth, personally, emotionally, behaviorally, and spiritually. i reckon when im filled with my self-will, i aint open to learnin new shit. hell, mannn, i aint even open to doin the right shit when all i can think about is fulfillin my self-centeredness. i must say that i dont know every right thing to do or say. i have to learn, and i learn by tryin shit. sometimes im successful and sometimes i fail. and most times, i have to be told by another if im doin somethin right or wrong. i think that the personal inventories i did in steps, 4 & 8, showed me a lot of who i was at the time i did em initially. they gave me a point of origin to start a change within that i desperately needed. its been my experience over the years as ive grown in my recovery that i cant stop doin the personal inventories. as my life evolves, so do the shortcomins i carry. hell man, sometimes i develop new ones and dont get to know about em til ive felt the sting of em or someone tells me. its another reason the relationship i have with my HP and others is so important, as important as the relationship i have with myself. when i learn more about myself i get to continue to change into someone ive never been before. experience turns into knowledge, and knowledge turns into wisdom. i get to ask questions when i practice humility, i get to ask my HP to help me by taken my shortcomins from me so i can do and say shit that doesnt harm others or myself. my spirituality involves the freedom to change, and growth within requires a variety of choices. today i have the freedom to experience the spiritual power of Gods creativity and grow in my awareness of His multifaceted love for me. the answers come when i humble myself and am willin to ask and learn. when i listen closely enough within, i get to distinguish the voice of God from the voice of my ego. the confusin signals i usually receive are due to my inability to listen to Him or another, most importantly, are the result of not doin what i should be doin. its been my experience that humility is the soil in which all other virtues grow and is somethin that enhances my peace of mind. when im humbled, i get to be an instrument, for my HP. 1 day @ a time...