my daily reflections…

the serenity i get to live today is a blessin. from that blessin ive been granted freedom to live as i wish. and what is the most amazin thing to me about this freedom is, i get to do the shit i really wanted to while out doin my dirt, but never could truly enjoy. i get to really live life today and enjoy it with all of its ups and downs. havin lived in fear a majority of my life, i could never have the fun life gives. the adventures i live today add to the experience of true livin. ive been given answers and solutions to the personal problems i faced so many times back in the day. i aint gotta worry about what anybody thinks about me because the freedom i get to live is wholesome. i am ok with me today, i aint gotta hide. idk what ya’ll feel about serenity, but i know what i feel about it, and today i have the serenity after the storm that this mornins readin speaks of. to live with integrity gives me the willingness to make sacrifices for what i believe to be true. its been my experience that livin a spiritual program has led me to integrity. not so many years ago, integrity was not a word in my vocabulary because of my unwillingness to make and live by healthy, balanced, and sane sacrifices. i was so selfishly preoccupied with my wants that i gave little thought to the needs of others. the more i lost myself in self, the greater was the emotional pain. today i live the paradox that only in givin do i truly receive. when i make space for nourishin moments in each day, i get to receive what is exactly right for me from my HP. i am grateful for the beauty all around. my HP helps me keep life more balanced so i can receive the spiritual nourishment it provides. perseverance allows me to take a continuous look at my assets and liabilities, and recovery has taught me how to have a real desire to learn and grow by this means, it is a necessity for me. ive unfortunately had to learn this the hard way. ive discovered that life is a steady drizzle of small things, so, i carry the umbrella of a relationship with my HP. ive also learned that takin my own inventory is not always done in red ink, i can also find the good i have within. i get to attain a state of true calmness and serenity within, which provides me to live in quietness, with peace of mind. 1 day @ a time...