my daily reflections…

through perseverance in my personal program of recovery i have been able to maintain constant sobriety since i started it this last time. soul searchin and self-searchin were essential in the determination to make recovery work for me. and it wasnt somethin i could only do once, i have to continue to do it daily, findin out what i need to do to make myself better for the present moment. ive had to admit and accept many things about myself i did not like. ive had to face the person i had become due to my alcoholism and learn to love myself. with my HP, this thing we do, and the fellowship that surrounds it, ive had to persistently look within with diligence and vigilance to open up and work toward makin the shit i didnt like about me lovable. and to say it didnt take patience, id straight be story tellin ya. ive faced the baggage ive carried all my life and learned how to correct and turn those liabilities into assets for success in livin the change recovery offers. i aint by any means perfect, i still make mistakes, but the difference from the days of doin my dirt to the person i am today, is im willin to admit and accept those mistakes, learn from them, and use the solutions recovery has taught me to live beyond them in the hopes i dont make em again. recovery has taught me how to be determined and endure what my HP and recovery have enabled me to learn. i get to be vulnerable to the volatility of a world around me that evolves and changes constantly. i do not have to fear impermanence. in fact, i get to look forward to it. i can live with my insecurities and weaknesses usin them to grow better emotionally, behaviorally, psychologically, and spiritually. i get to feel at peace today as i learn to accept life on lifes terms. i get to live with ya’ll instead of apart from ya. i reckon i just told ya of some of the benefits of workin with yesterdays baggage. what a blessin it is to have taken the time to look at me. ive learned that this thing we do is not for people who need it, its not even for people who want it; its for people who will work it. 1 day @ a time...