my daily reflections…

my daily reflections... i am blessed with the ability to enjoy the freedoms recovery has taught me are mine to own. the freedom to be myself has given me the self-confidence i need to be able to say and do what i want, when i want, as long as i am not knowingly hurtin somebody else. and spirituality offers me the strength and courage in proclaimin this liberty. when i am spiritually connected, my well-bein awards me a fit condition in which i can further offer what ive found out about myself to others in the hopes that it may be of service to them. this doesnt mean i go out and insert my will upon others, as personal inventory has shown me the liabilities i own in such behaviors from my past. self-restraint, knowin when to talk, or behave, is an act of perseverance that requires i use each of the spiritual principles of recovery to live rightly in any moment im given. the intuition i receive from my HP will let me know when and how to speak or act in accordance with His will. allowin others to live as they wish, without my want to control them, is an act of self-restraint. the only one i can truly and rightly control is myself, nobody else. the spirituality i live and practice today seeks to bring people together with a sincere respect for each other. practicin self-restraint even when there is nothin at stake, means i aint gotta exaggerate my qualities and boast of my accomplishments. i do not need to display what may be termed a “grandiose ego”, pretentious and false. i aint gotta feel the need to hide behind an inflated image of myself either. as i move in my recovery, i find that i gain insight and confidence about myself. i am no longer a shame-based person, so i aint gotta feel the need to hide behind a mask either. i am neither an angel nor beast, and i can be proud to be human, i can be myself usin healthy and balanced self-restraint. through the utter defeat learned through personal inventory i am able to take steps toward liberation and strength. my admissions of personal powerlessness finally turn out to be a firm bedrock upon which a happy and purposeful life may be built, usin self-restraint to grow integrity and peace of mind. today i am glad to be at a place where i can be fully human, whether im alone or with others. 1 day @ a time...