my daily reflections…

selfishness, dishonesty, resentment, and fear are forms of character defects and shortcomins that are engrained deep within me. i practiced each to their fullest potential for years, honin them as skills to use against others to get what i wanted while out doin my dirt. though i have a very good relationship with my HP and have asked Him through prayer to help rid me of them, listened through meditation in earnest, and have practiced what i have received from that prayer and meditation, i am still human and will call these deficiencies and weaknesses up for ready use when i feel my ego or pride begin to be stepped on. i am not so foolish to think or believe that these will ever totally disappear from within. so, what recovery has taught me to do is help me let loose of em when i feel em start to crop up. just as this mornins readin suggests, im to pray, askin God to help me let loose of em. i listen for His guidance, discuss them with a trusted friend in recovery, make amends if ive harmed another usin em, then get out of self to help another. recovery has had the effect of helpin to point me beyond myself, while at the same time breathin Gods glory into me. when i practice my spiritual program of recovery, it incorporates its different types of solutions and the inexhaustible joys of the melody those solutions bring me. i get to feel the miracle workin within me and get to watch it work outside of me as i practice recoverys solutions by helpin to heal the damages i may have done while usin the defects and shortcomins mentioned above. i get to be thankful to my HP for teachin me the solutions needed and show gratitude by perseverin and usin the solutions offered. its how i use my spirituality with others to help continue to grow in understandin. its not that i plan how it works out, its that i use the faith in my HP and use His intuitive urgins to go with the flow, doin the next right action. i trust God for what i need when its time comes. ive learned that situations i fear are rarely as bad as the fear itself. but with unremittin inventories i get the opportunity to fix me so i may learn how to not harm others again when the same situations or feelins within come. ive learned through experience that unreasonable fear expressed allows relief when i use faith and an honest look within, to overcome me. 1 day @ a time...