my daily reflections…

for me, to assist the program of recovery i use to beat down my alcoholism, i must do things that i probably wouldnt have done before my recovery began. this mornins daily reflection sure nuff speaks of things i probably would never have done. if worrin and obsessin over what happened throughout my day was what this morns readin meant, i had that shit covered so well, id be so wore out from it, that the only thing that would have taken it away would have been my HP, alcohol. but thats not how i read it today. see ive had to learn how to think and act differently than before my recovery. today, what it means to me is exactly what it says, i review my day constructively, askin my HP, God, to help me see where i had possibly made mistakes or possibly made the day a success. if ive made mistakes i ask him for the courage and strength to help me clear the wreckage of my day. if it means an amends and restitution be made and done to someone i do it as soon as i can. if i had success, i smile, thank God for His aid, and move forward. each mornin, back in the day, i would awaken, roll a joint, and immediately start worryin bout what was to come throughout my day. today i dont do that. i take the time to read a couple daily readins, glean a couple spiritual principles from each, pray, askin God to help me live them in my life, then meditate awaitin his answers. i then go out into the world and face the day. as i live my day i keep a watchful eye for any self-pity, dishonest, or self-seekin motives. see, recovery has had the effect of change in my life. i get to live with humility and integrity today because of the relationship i have with my HP. i aint tryina say i dont ever suffer from any defects or shortcomins, cause i do. all im tryina say is that today i get to live with the freedom to be able to take care of them with right action when i sense them comin on. today i aint gotta start or end with worry or obsession, drugs, or alcohol, creatin my own adversity, because ive learned how to live with and deal with self and the problems i used to try to create back in the day. i get to live the adventure of recovery usin it as a program for livin, keepin peace of mind throughout much of each day. spiritual progress isnt what gets me sober, its what keeps me sober. recovery asks me to persevere, so thats what i do. 1 day @ a time...