my daily reflections…

in the days of doin my dirt i always thought i had to exert my opinion on everythin outside of me whether it pertained to me or not. feelin my oats, i tried to influence my will onto others by decoratin my ego with their inadequacy or illuminate it by agreein so i could feed some inner need for dominance. with the wisdom gained of my character ive learned that this always only caused controversy for me by subconsciously implantin drama or chaos into a situation. live and let live was a concept that i could not grasp, my ego and false sense of pride would not let me. havin learned much about myself through personal inventory i have learned to use the patience and ease recovery teaches me. ive learned to embrace the full implications of my nature to want to always be right and use it to openly, and freely, meet others halfway whether i agree with em or not. ive learned that not always am i right, nor do the situations around me necessarily need my input. ive learned that just because somethin may be different than i would like, that i dont need to try to make it fit me. ive learned that maybe, just maybe, i need to learn how i can make it work for me in my life with tolerance, surrender, and acceptance. ive learned that gratitude for the opportunity to learn somethin different, or new, can add value to my life. as i continue to learn how to turn denial into acceptance, chaos to order, confusion to clarity, i get to exercise gratitude and unlock the fullness of life. with a wholehearted commitment and willingness, i have learned to accept what i may feel is less than perfection and to make allowances for my human weakness. as i grow emotionally, psychologically, and spiritually, i get to become trustworthy, steady, and reliable in my daily life with the ability to have an attentive presence, willingness to serve, and protective spirit. recovery has given me an extramundane view that allows me to see beyond myself. as ive gained a loyalty to true self over time and trust has grown ive continually reinforced honesty without even tryin. this has all lessened the mask of anger that can well up within exposin the fears i have. with the understandin of these simple facts about myself i get to persevere by ownin my individuality and not intrude in shit that i have no business interferin in. this allows a neutrality within that benefits me, and others, providin peace of mind. 1 day @ a time...