my daily reflections…

its been proven to me that when i step back, stop pushin my shit, relax and take it easy, my day goes much better. when i am open minded, i get the opportunity to learn, whether its from my own mistakes, or anothers. i dont think i ever experienced either in their true definition before my recovery began unless they were forced upon me. and usually, it was some social norm, informal, rule, or law, that i didnt want to conform to but was forced to by an authority over me. open-mindedness, a positive quality ive learned, is a necessary ability in order for me to think critically and rationally. it helps me take a back seat so that humility can have an opportunity to be practiced. when i have surrendered control, i get to form new ideas, experiences, and have perspectives brought into the forefront of my thought so i may challenge my old ideas. my sponsor once told me that it was ok for me not to know everythin and that havin all the answers is what had brought me to the rooms. humility allows me to get over sensitiveness, the feelins which are too easily hurt, and negative self-satisfaction. i can do the things that need to be done, without feelin like i am owed by another for doin em. i can face things that are embarrassin or uncomfortable because i dont get in the way of them. open mindedness and humility go hand in hand allowin me to grow spiritually and have true self-respect. ive found that when i change my “always”, “nevers”, and “have to’s”, i get to change my story. these simple concepts are the catalyst for changin the outcome of my life. standin for equal fairness, enables respect for others and myself to flourish. and i get to let love, not shame, or fear, control my actions. when i work hard to be fair with others, i get what i deserve, to be treated with fairness too. its the practice and perseverance of all the spiritual principles usin open mindedness that help me to grow in humility increasin the integrity i have. ive learned a lil self-restraint goes a very long way. if i want the gift of an untroubled mind, i gotta surrender, tolerate, and accept that the attitude adjustment i receive is a blessin. 1 day @ a time...