my daily reflections…

perseverance means that i continue to do what recovery has taught me whether i feel like i want to or not. yes, takin a break from a day and usin it to rest is important, but to not do what recovery has taught me, is a recipe for disaster. its why balance is so important. when i use recovery in my day, in each moment of it, i get to see the character defects and shortcomins that tend to happen without implication. remainin willin to grow means remainin, not only vigilant, but diligent, as well. havin used recovery for as long as i have doesnt mean i am immune from showin my ass. so, it stands to reason that just as i want to practice self, i must want to practice recovery right alongside it. its how i get to grow, by livin life and makin mistakes just bein me. whether good or bad, whatever i may find within, i must take the time to use it as rightly as possible. sometimes this is a very difficult thing to do, so, i must remember my past, forgive myself for it, and use the wisdom i gained from experience to grow into a better version of me. keepin shit hidden and out of thought, mind, or view, intentionally, only creates worse damage for me that may be behaved or spoken outward toward another. i aint tryina do that shit any more, harm others, or myself. continuin to build and work toward a better relationship with my HP helps me when i am just plain livin life. even when shits goin good, keepin in communion with Him is beneficial. cause to be honest, when shits happenin my way, i can tend to forget all about my HP and take credit for the shit He is doin. when i keep His spirit in my heart and thought, im filled with an abidin peace that keeps the smile within shinin outward for all to see. its my choice to look at whats goin on within me or intentionally try to rationalize it away. today, this moment, i choose joy. its been my experience that when my direction is correct, then progress is sure to follow. keepin the direction of my mind in healthy and balanced reflection rather than keepin a focus away from me, i get to benefit beyond my greatest expectations. then i get to pass on the good my HP gives to me, to others. when i face everythin, i get to recover. 1 day @ a time...